Friday, June 28, 2019

I See You

Do you see me ?   Peeking under the garage door !
I did not at first , but I do now and you really surprised me and I stopped watering with the hose just so I could talk to you .  You are such a sweet love ! ! !
And , you sure like to know what I am doing - don't you ?

Miss Ivy has been such a delight .  Much like most cats , her behaviors are always amusing and entertaining and always make a person think "what's that all about" .  Guess what - - - we never are going to know ! ! !  

The Daylilies are starting to show their beauty .  I wish my plants were big and lush but they aren't .  I think the roots have difficulty with this horrid soil .  But they always give me a few lovelies to enjoy every year . Many more varieties are coming . 

And, from my window I can enjoy these beautiful White Hydrangeas every morning when I open the curtains .

And, look at that lush Basil .  I must get busy and make some Basil Pesto .  

Sending good thoughts for all of you to have a Great Weekend .

Mary

Tuesday, June 25, 2019

Work, Work And More Work

It seems like that is all I have been doing .  Outside and inside .  Of course , my favorite is outside in the garden .  I have three different Honeysuckle plants and they all are blooming .

And, the Petunias continue to sparkle .
I also have some beautiful Black Petunias .  Next time more photos ! When I have more time .

House will be painted during the end of July at my request . Have things to do in preparation .  I am tired but wanted to pop in and say hello .

Until next time .

Mary

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Beside Myself With Joy

It has been very interesting to process how wonderful my life has become !  My mind approach has changed so much in the past year and a half that I feel like a totally different person .  Living in the moment with thankfulness and openness to pleasurable new experiences, gifts (non-material) and mindful acceptance without expectation is so very different from how I have lived my long life .  I know that in the past the majority of my subconscious and conscience thoughts were focused on "survival" .  Sometimes, that meant fear and that manifested with physical and of course mental anguish ! And, I don't even think that I knew what it felt like "to relax"  -  I mean REALLY relax .  I feel a very overpowering sense of Wholeness, Comfort and Gratefulness .
May I share a very recent course of events that has truly overwhelmed me with initial response of marvel versus disbelief !  As you may recall, for about three years I have been very displeased with the lack of proper medical care .  And, recently I have started to formulate a plan to remedy the situation .  With the guidance of my Psychologist I was able to get scheduled to see a Nurse Practitioner who has had a very good reputation .  Of course there was a long waiting period . And, at my request I was given the name of a Psychiatrist who would be able to evaluate my antidepressant  medications with a focus of assisting me with the increased symptoms of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD).  Even though we are having beautiful summer weather and no symptoms of SAD I would like to think that I will not have the increasing symptoms during the winters to come .

Now then.  When I contacted the Psychiatrist office (which is an hour and a half drive from here) I was told that he was no longer working at that office .

And  then.  I received a call from the office of the Nurse Practitioner office that she was going out on a medical leave for surgery and would not be able to see me .

If you recall, I mentioned that when I started this journey I was going to approach this with strong determination to obtain the proper medical care .  So - - - the next thing I did was to go to the Internet and research Psychiatrists in my area .  In full disclosure, I really did not think I would find anything that would be helpful .  But, as I persisted I came upon a name of a Psychiatrist with fifteen years experience and her private office in on Main Street of the little town that I live .  I could hardly believe it ! ! !  Additionally,  I could walk to her office - it is that close .  OK, that sounded promising !  More on this to come - - - .

When the scheduling office called about the cancellation of the appointment with the NP, they said that there was a new MD on staff that was taking new patients .  It just so happened that I very recently noticed that information in the local newspaper .  Furthermore, many years ago I had been a patient of his when he worked at the same hospital .  My experience as a patient at that time was unremarkable with no recollection of dissatisfaction . His schedule had a new patient opening in a few days and I was scheduled !  I was so happy to feel great satisfaction and optimism.

In preparation for my appointment I went through some of my medical records of the most recent and pertinent diagnostic results and I made copies for the doctor . Without going into lengthy detail I will say that I felt prepared to demand appropriate medical care !  For some reason, the old saying of  "Loaded For Bear" came to my mind!  In case you are younger than me 👵 the informal saying dates back to mid 1800's meaning "fully prepared and eager to initiate or deal with a fight, confrontation or trouble".

When I arrived at my appointment everything moved along very smoothly and to my surprise the doctor was very cordial, interactive and spent more than an hour addressing all the issues that I had . Additionally, he did a complete systems review that would in the "good ol' days" be considered an annual exam .  I even was able to finally get my tetanus vaccine shot that I have been asking for and never getting .  It is important especially since I work in my garden a lot .

I am scheduled for the CAT Scan of my abdomen for July 1 and he will do comparison studies with the previous Gastroenterology reports . He has requested the Pathology report from 2012 when two polyps were removed during a routine colonoscopy even though I was verbally told the report was normal .

A referral to the local Psychiatrist for my medication review is being made .  He is familiar and pleased with the Psychiatrist that I told him about !

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ?  It looks like I finally have a competent Physician and his speciality is Internal Medicine . And, that is all the better .  I AM SO THANKFUL !
The garden is flourishing like I have never seen the likes of .   All the rains and some soil conditioner have certainly influenced the lovely visuals I enjoy each day .

Do you see what I see ?  I had forgotten all about the White Amaryllis .  The blooms are huge !!


 Such a stunning Rose .
And, some cheerful Nastertions and Carnations starting to bloom along the driveway .

Next time I will have more photos of the garden with all the latest plants that have started to bloom .

Happy Summer Solstice tomorrow .

Mary

Wednesday, June 5, 2019

TEN YEARS Ago Today I Started To Blog

And what a ride it has been .  A VERY GOOD RIDE .
Thank You to everyone who has come to visit, read my thoughts and encouraged me to continue!
And look what I can share with you this morning after taking a walk outside .  The diameter of this Oklahoma Hybrid Tea Rose is five inches and it is described as an unusual dark red color . It is very dark - almost a maroon and has a very strong rose fragrance that is noticable when walking by  the bush.
More to Come in the 11th year.

Mary

Sunday, June 2, 2019

Mock Orange In Full Bloom

 And it is so lovely !
 A small Dahlia is tucked in below the big rock .
Rock Rose up close.
 Every garden can use a few Violas .
 Gerbera Daisy
This is a favorite flower of mine .  The Campanula Persicifolia 'Grandiflora Alba' grows on long stems and blows in the breeze .
Red Valerian grows freely, has a long growing season and self seeds .  There are white, pink and red varieties .
It won't be long and the White Hydrangea will be in full bloom .  The plant is double the size since last year .  There are a few Gladiolas coming up to the left of it .

This ol' favorite climbing rose, White New Dawn is flourishing even though I pruned it quite severely not all that long ago . 

And, one of the many Honeysuckle plants in my garden has started to bloom .
Thank you for joining me on my little walk in my garden .

I am so happy that the last few days have been nice and warm, sunny and pleasant .  The long many rainy days have really been challenging with my Seasonal Affective Disorder .

For the last few months I have kind of put my medical concerns "on a shelf'" but it is time that I continue to work on finding satisfactory to me medical care .  I am actually feeling quite well, but there are a few concerns like no appetite and weight loss - some abdominal issues that need attention.  I believe it would be very helpful to have my medications reviewed  and re-evaluated .  It has been more than three years that some of my blood chemistry's have been checked .  My opinion of today's medicare care can not be shared because of the many naughty words that would be in my explanation!!!  My approach has become one of  determination to get what I need! And That is That !

Best Wishes and sending good thoughts to all of you and hope you are not subjected to undesirable weather and danger .

Mary

White Garden 2009

White Garden 2009
IN MY GARDEN there is a large place for sentiment. My garden of flowers is also my garden of thoughts and dreams. The Thoughts grow as freely as the flowers and the dreams are as beautiful. - Abram Urban

Iris Flowers 2009

Iris Flowers  2009
In the garden I tend to drop my thoughts here and there. To the flowers I whisper the secrets I keep and the hopes I breathe. I know they are there to eavesdrop for the angels. ~Dodinsky

Pink Flowers 2009

Pink Flowers  2009

Yellow Flowers 2009

Yellow Flowers  2009