Well , first off , life is really good even when it is difficult . You already know that perspective is my new found gift ! The reoccurring thought that I think of almost the moment that I awaken each day is my gratitude to have lived to this age and finally found who I am . And I like it and I like her !!! WOW , now that is a huge statement coming from me .
As with most people , life is filled with many bumps and bruises in the travels . I have had my fair share and then some . Life has been very far from what I could ever have anticipated . Much , much more difficult than beyond my thoughts . Especially , after I became a single parent . It was so frightening! I was so alone in such a big world that was far more complex than my "little mind" could sort out .
Even though I have fallen severely hard to the ground and really really struggled to regain my balance , my inner self apparently trusted that there was more for me in the future that was worth pushing onward to explore . And , here I am , very grateful to be alive and have been given the beautiful opportunity to be ME and more expectedly , have more days on my Life Calendar .
In my exploration of my life , issues have been tossed upside down and every which way in an effort to understand and make sense of it . The benefit of that dissection has been the comfort of truly understanding that so much has been out of my control and what matters is how I respond to circumstances . It did not matter how hard I tried "to fix things" . It did not make a difference . I now know that I did my best and no longer have to take responsivity for what wasn't mine !
For being a person who has been very private and protective of self , who never kept a diary or a journal for fear it wasn't safe it amazes me that "I Am A Blogger". And , for more than 10 years ! It has gently pushed me to be more transparent and trusting that what I have to say, really does have some merit ! I guess I didn't think my thoughts and ideas were valid enough and I may be ridiculed if anyone were to see my thoughts "out loud" . But , here I am telling you lots of stuff about me , my thoughts , my ideas and my aspirations for my future .
The feeling of being cool within myself - is priceless .
So, what is different about today ? It is My Birthday
Yes , yes , yes - I Am A Year Older - Really Old .
Happy belated birthday dear friend Mary. I hope your day was full of good things.
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