As I mentioned in June, I saw my General Practice Physician because of some abdominal discomfort and a CAT scan was prescribed . And, I was told I would get a call with appointment date in 4 to 5 days . I never received a call . So, it was about 3 weeks later when I called to find out what was going on . Well, something fell through the cracks and nothing was scheduled . It's important for me to note that I asked the doctor about the prep procedure because of my very challenging gastrointestinal disability with the loss of control when defecating . See this Blog Post for history. The doctor said that no prep would be necessary.
So, after several phone calls, I was scheduled for the CAT scan at the hospital. Then, I was told I will need some lab work because the scan will be done with a contrast medium which will give clearer visibility of abdominal body organs which means I would need a Barium prep. I do not have any problem with all of this other than my concern regarding my body's response in light of the rectal incontinence issues . This information has been discussed with the doctor in the past as well as now . The best way I can explain what happens to me when having the prep is to say "it is the worst kind of a Shitty Mess" ! The last time I had a scan with prep I was an inpatient at the hospital. At the current time I do not have anyone to assist me in this burdensome activity.
In general , when I think a medical procedure or treatment is appropriate , my approach is "just do it". No need fretting about it. What good does it do ? We don't always have a choice in what is necessary for our well being, - - - But we have a choice in how we respond to it !
However , I am feeling very different at this time . I really-really-really do not want to go through all the unpleasantness of lack of control of my bodily function. However, my BIGGEST CONCERN is the lack of communication between all the people involved. I see it as a Big Red Flag !
I have cancelled the appointment for the CAT scan and I will request a referral to a Specialist. I refuse to be caught in a compromising situation that could be anything but in my best interest . After making this decision I feel very relieved and very happy with my plans. I am feeling quite well, only occasional mild symptoms . I do not think I am dealing with anything that would be considered life threatening. And, there is no question in my mind about my decision if I were to be faced with determining future medical treatment. I refuse to ever agree to undergo chemotherapy. And, I do not think I will be faced with that circumstance.
In fact, I have placed a picture of a HEALTHY abdomen over my kitchen sink which provides a great visual for me to focus on. Remember, I am a retired Nurse. So, this picture has no distress for me.
Life can be a series of somersaults .
So, after several phone calls, I was scheduled for the CAT scan at the hospital. Then, I was told I will need some lab work because the scan will be done with a contrast medium which will give clearer visibility of abdominal body organs which means I would need a Barium prep. I do not have any problem with all of this other than my concern regarding my body's response in light of the rectal incontinence issues . This information has been discussed with the doctor in the past as well as now . The best way I can explain what happens to me when having the prep is to say "it is the worst kind of a Shitty Mess" ! The last time I had a scan with prep I was an inpatient at the hospital. At the current time I do not have anyone to assist me in this burdensome activity.
In general , when I think a medical procedure or treatment is appropriate , my approach is "just do it". No need fretting about it. What good does it do ? We don't always have a choice in what is necessary for our well being, - - - But we have a choice in how we respond to it !
However , I am feeling very different at this time . I really-really-really do not want to go through all the unpleasantness of lack of control of my bodily function. However, my BIGGEST CONCERN is the lack of communication between all the people involved. I see it as a Big Red Flag !
I have cancelled the appointment for the CAT scan and I will request a referral to a Specialist. I refuse to be caught in a compromising situation that could be anything but in my best interest . After making this decision I feel very relieved and very happy with my plans. I am feeling quite well, only occasional mild symptoms . I do not think I am dealing with anything that would be considered life threatening. And, there is no question in my mind about my decision if I were to be faced with determining future medical treatment. I refuse to ever agree to undergo chemotherapy. And, I do not think I will be faced with that circumstance.
In fact, I have placed a picture of a HEALTHY abdomen over my kitchen sink which provides a great visual for me to focus on. Remember, I am a retired Nurse. So, this picture has no distress for me.
Mind - Body - Spirit - Gratitude.
Life can be a series of somersaults .
You gotta just keep rolling !
Mary
Not to sound glib dear Mary, but "trust your gut" sounds like the best course of action. Thinking of you and sending lots of healthy prayers and thoughts your way.
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