Or is it ?
Do you see anything different in the above Blog Header below the photo that says
- Life Is Good ?
Well , first off , life is really good even when it is difficult . You already
know that perspective is my new found gift ! The reoccurring thought that I
think of almost the moment that I awaken each day is my gratitude to have
lived to this age and finally found who I am . And I like it and I like
her !!! WOW , now that is a huge statement coming from me .
As with most people , life is filled with many bumps and bruises in the
travels . I have had my fair share and then some . Life has been very
far from what I could ever have anticipated . Much , much more difficult
than beyond my thoughts . Especially , after I became a single parent .
It was so frightening! I was so alone in such a big world that was far
more complex than my "little mind" could sort out .
Even though I have fallen severely hard to the ground and really really
struggled to regain my balance , my inner self apparently trusted that there
was more for me in the future that was worth pushing onward to explore .
And , here I am , very grateful to be alive and have been given the beautiful
opportunity to be ME and more expectedly , have more days on my Life
Calendar .
In my exploration of my life , issues have been tossed upside down and every
which way in an effort to understand and make sense of it . The benefit
of that dissection has been the comfort of truly understanding that so much
has been out of my control and what matters is how I respond to circumstances
. It did not matter how hard I tried "to fix things" . It
did not make a difference . I now know that I did my best and no
longer have to take responsivity for what wasn't mine !
For being a person who has been very private and protective of self ,
who never kept a diary or a journal for fear it wasn't safe it amazes me that
"I Am A Blogger". And , for more than 10 years ! It has gently
pushed me to be more transparent and trusting that what I have to say, really
does have some merit ! I guess I didn't think my thoughts and ideas were
valid enough and I may be ridiculed if anyone were to see my thoughts "out
loud" . But , here I am telling you lots of stuff about me , my thoughts
, my ideas and my aspirations for my future .
The feeling of being cool within myself - is priceless .
So, what is different about today ?
It is My Birthday
Yes , yes , yes - I Am A Year Older - Really Old .
81 - - - Can you count them ? Oh, don't bother . I think they are all
there !
(google image)
Thank you for being a part of my incredible journey . The remainder will
be just "icing on the cake" !
Mary