"What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us." – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Showing posts with label Lily. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lily. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

My Special Relationship With My Precious Dog

           

Considering my "sunset" station in this journey of my life, my number one concern was that the dog could live longer than me and that was a horrible thought because I would not be able to insure that a loving and responsible home would be in her future. Financial issues were also a concern but certainly not at the top of my list.

So anyway, I didn't make any active plans to get another dog. I still had my precious Calico Tabby cat, Puff who grew up with my previous wonderful Yorkshire Terrier dog, Pixie.  And the cat was fabulous comfort for me and provided lots of love for eighteen years. 
Lily and Puff

And then, as life has a way of shaping our journeys, I started reading about Cavalier King Charles Spaniel dogs. The breed was new to me and I liked everything I read about them. But, they were expensive! So, I just filed my new information in the back of my mind and proceeded with my simple stable and quiet life.

But then, quite some time later I was at the grocery store one day and saw a darling little puppy in a lady's shopping cart. I couldn't believe my eyes. It was the first time I had seen one other than the many pictures I had looked at. The lady and I chatted and yes she confirmed that it was a Cavalier! And, her comments were glowing about her experience with the breed.

Again I tucked all the new information away until one day I decided to look at the Internet to see what might be available. The standard weight of these "jewels" can be as much as 25 pounds which is more than what is best for me considering my low back injury/surgery. And, then I found that there were breeders that were providing some Cavaliers that were on the lower end of the weight scale.

AND, I think it was in February 2006, that my girl friend (who passed away 2 years ago) and I were driving to Sacramento International Airport to pick up a baby girl puppy. On our way home, my girlfriend insisted on holding her. There was no way she was going to let her stay in the crate. The puppy snuggled in her neck and nibbled on her ear lobe. It was so exciting and she was so very tiny. Yes, she is the "jewel" in the middle of the next photo. The one with her little tail in the air! You can see she is the littlest in the photo. Just the right size!


Sadly, TODAY is ONE YEAR since my Lily left for the Rainbow Bridge.



My heart is so heavy as it is every single day. I miss her more than my words can say. For various reasons we had a certain bond that is indescribable. My grief/loss is as great as it was the day she left.

It was a few days ago that I just happened to see the poem written in 1922 by Rudyard Kipling (1865 - 1936).  I would like to share it with you.

"The Power Of A Dog"  by  Rudyard Kipling

THERE is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and Sisters, I bid you beware      
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie—
Perfect passion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.      
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart for a dog to tear.

When the fourteen years which Nature permits
Are closing in asthma, or tumor, or fits,
And the vet’s unspoken prescription runs      
To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
Then you will find—it’s your own affair—
But … you’ve given your heart to a dog to tear.

When the body that lived at your single will,
With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!).      
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone—wherever it goes—for good,
You will discover how much you care,
And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

We’ve sorrow enough in the natural way,      
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we’ve kept ’em, the more do we grieve:      
For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short-time loan is as bad as a long—
So why in—Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

The poem is "pretty heavy" but also some "food for thought".
But there is no way I would have wanted to do anything differently. I think the love
from our dogs/pets, even though it has a time limit, can help soothe the sorrows of
today just by us having had the love.

Please hug the ones you love and never forget your four legged "jewels".

Wishing you Well.

Mary

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Why People Get Dogs

I miss my precious Lily so very much. She was so special, especially during some very difficult times for me during the time I was blessed to have her UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. She left eight months ago and my feeling of loss is as strong as it was on that day.

Hug your pets and your people, too.

Mary

Friday, September 2, 2016

And On The 9th Day

It has now been six months since my precious Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, Lily left this earth and joined my other furbabies, Pixie and Puff.

Each day continues to be difficult for me especially when I awake in the morning and my automatic mental response to the new day starts with "Where is Lily?" Oh, how I loved that little heart filled with so much love.

When I saw this video on Youtube this morning by happenstance I knew I wanted to share it with you.

It pretty much sums up what my little bundle of love meant to me.

The words are a spin-off from the 1978 speech, "God Made A Farmer", that was given by Paul Harvey. More info at God Made A Farmer.



And,  Oh, how I miss her!!!!!

Mary

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Walk With Me

Every single morning I can hardly wait to go outside and check the garden for everything that looks new since the day before. So much is growing so quickly. And, I am enjoying each and every moment. The White Garden is starting to burst forth with lovely healthy freshness. The Vanhouttei Spirea, a vigorous bloomer on the left has been blooming for weeks already. The white Iris popped two days ago and the Gourmet Popcorn delicate Rose bush in the front is loaded, really loaded with healthy buds. 

This little area of my garden is really responding to all the attention that it has been receiving. The addition of about 8 cubic feet of mulch and garden soil has helped tremendously! There are so many interesting plants yet to bloom. It is quite a nice list: 'Belle Etiole' Mock Orange,   'The Bride' White Gaura,   Star Jasmine,   'Diana' Hibiscus (Rose of Sharon),   Camellia,   Phlox,   'Joan Senoir' Day Lilies,   'Carpet of Snow' Sweet Asylum,   Jupiter's Beard (Red Valerian),   'Double White' Peony,   'Autumn' Clematis,   'White Alva' Dahlia,   Cyclamen,   Hydrangea,  'White Holly' Penstemon,   'Radicans' Gardenia,   Chrysanthemums,   Snapdragon,   Stock,   'John E Kennedy' Rose,   Sweet Peas,   'White Zephyr' Fairy Lily,   Geranium,   Lamb's Ear,   Pansy,   Azalea,   'White Dawn' Climbing Rose and many different bulbs including Asiatic and Oriental Lilies. Wow, that is quite a list. With more rainfall this year I hope their health and garden performance will improve from the most recent years.
Iris

 Snapdragon

Lamb's Ear

Chive Blossoms

 First Rose of The Season (named Signature)

And, now a little closing photo of precious Lily on a day when she was doing a little outdoor lazy supervising! I will always love her so very much. It is almost two months since she had to leave me. A teardrop just fell!
Happiness to each and everyone of you.

Mary

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Yes, It Is March

And, my flowers are from the garden. How wonderful is that? But, what a terrible time I have had trying to get this photo to look halfway decent! I hope it is just the lighting and not my camera. No, it could not possibly be me. HA, HA, HA. It really is kind of sad. I have a wonderful little camera but I have never learned to use all the settings and there are many. Maybe, my difficulties taking photos lately will push me to learn to do better.
The crocheted Spring colored doily is something new that I recently completed. I am beginning to think that it may be nice to make some more and I could use them as place mats especially for spring time. The yarn is Stylecraft Special DK and the yarn is washable which is a nice added plus for table dressings. The pattern is called an Easter Mandala by Crafternoon Treats-April-2015.

We have been very blessed with heavy rainfall for the past several days. Several inches of rain and snow has been wonderful for the state's water supply. In the last few days we have had over four inches of rain. The snow level is quite close to me at 3,500 foot elevation. Unfortunately, the high winds have been fierce and caused trees and branches to fall. And, another storm that is expected to be colder is forecast for next week which could potentially produce significant rain, wind and snow.
This photo is from today's newspaper. 

The days are getting a little easier for me to deal with the loss of my Precious Lily. And, I am thankful.

Where ever you are I wish you a Warm Heart and Warm Hands.

Mary

Saturday, March 5, 2016

Opened The Window Drapes

To a Rain Washed World at least from my perspective. How lovely! It seems as though we are getting some good rainfall mostly during the nighttime. At least that is the way it has been for the last two nights. I love the sunshine and mild temperatures we are having during the daytime.

Yesterday I walked around my little garden areas and observed how much needs to be done. Mostly the weeds are the biggest issue. The rains have brought up a tremendous amount of beautiful green. At the present time they are easy to pull but they are getting taller day by day. But, it's OK because the water is more important.

There is not much starting to bloom but there is a lot of new growth in the garden. Of course, if you have a Forsythia Yellow Plant you know it is the harbinger of spring as it is an early bloomer along with Red Quince.

I have just a few photos I tried to take yesterday during a light rain. The quality of these photos show that I was feeling impatient with my lack of photo expertise. Oh well, another day they will be better.

I am trying very hard to adjust to life without my sweet Lily. My greatest comfort is that she is no longer suffering. And I am so grateful for all the love, comfort and fun that she gave to me during the ten years. I know it will take me awhile to feel better. Please excuse my less than typical attempt at blogging. 

That said, I did some cooking which seemed very appropriate on a slightly rainy day. I had been reading pot chuck roast recipes and one in particular caught my attention. Specifically, because it called for one cup of strong coffee

So, here it is and it turned out with great flavor along with carrots, onions, potatoes and shiitake mushrooms. This is not fancy cooking but just simple home cooking that I can put in the freezer for little dinners through the coming weeks.

I hope all of you have a Very Good Weekend. 

Mary

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Until I See You Again

Yesterday morning my Precious Lily told me that it was the day she would be leaving this life and would be going to the Rainbow Bridge and would be waiting along with My Special Man; Hans (His Schnauzer), Pixie (My Yorkie) and Puff (My Tabby Cat) for me to arrive whenever that time comes.




Hans (2013) The day He went to the Rainbow Bridge with Lily comforting him.







Puff and Lily taking an afternoon nap ( 2007).

This has been an extremely difficult time. Precious Lily had started having severe difficulty breathing. And she was no longer able to breathe if she tried to lie down. She had to sit up in order to continue breathing. She told me with her eyes that she couldn't stay with me any longer. We spent half a day together with me holding her up to my chest and carrying her outdoors for a little time while we waited for her veterinarian appointment at noontime. She was so cuddly and clung to me so lovingly. She traveled so well sitting up in her car seat and she was so ready to see our wonderful Dr. Ray. It had been one and a half years since she was diagnosed with heart disease and I am convinced without a doubt that it is because of Dr. Ray and his talent and compassion that Lily and I had this length of time together. Dr Ray telephoned me almost every Monday morning to check on Lily (and Me) during that year and a half and was very generous regarding the expenses.  
Lily meant the world to me. She was with me through some of the most difficult times of my life. Her loving tender care of me helped me so much through life's hard times. I will miss her forever but I know my grief is necessary and the pain of loss will lessen in time. I am so comforted knowing that she no longer is sick and no longer struggling for her breath.

What a beautiful life chapter I have been given by having this special dog, Lilithann sharing with me.

Mary

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Bright Dispositions In The Home

I am sending A Lot of Sunlit Dispositions to you for this "Sunlit Sunday". Oh, the wonderfulness of a fireplace, be it wood or gas. It doesn't matter. Isn't this photo from google of these precious kitties great?  Just looking at it makes me feel so happy, calm, warm and cozy. And dare I say, makes me want another kitty cat some day.
My last Puttee Cat "Puff" traveled to the Rainbow Bridge in May 2008. She lived a comfortable life for nineteen years and during that time with two different doggies who loved her. Yes, the one thing I really miss is hearing her soothing purr. I recall many years ago (1988) when I got my first baby puppy my mind kept quietly saying why is she not purring? Funny how that works!
Puff was a very lovely and loving cat. She was very good natured and adjusted quickly with two doggies, Pixie (Yorkshire Terrier) and Lily during her lifetime. This photo was taken perhaps around Christmas 2006. By that time Lily had joined us and Puff and she were fast friends. They generally slept near each other if not snuggled together.
I tried to scan and print some old photographs without success of the two of them as well as photographs of my Yorkie, Pixie.
And here we have Lily in front of the fireplace. In time past Puff would be with Lily snuggling together on the bed getting warm. So tender and sweet.

Last, but not least, a picture of baby Lily with her siblings at about six weeks old. And, look at that tail! I call it her happy tail because it is almost always swishing back and forth.
I am joining Karen for "Sunlit Sunday" at My Little Home and Garden today.                        Please join us.
There is a lot of furry LOVE on this post today. 

Don't forget to hug your pets. They are our angels.

Mary

Thursday, February 4, 2016

I Know - I Know It's February

But, I feel like I want to be a ground hog and stay in my warm and cozy hole. I know  Punxsutawney Phil has shown us that we can expect an early spring. At least, in Pennsylvania! I have just one tidbit of trivia for you, which is one among many.

Groundhog Day has its roots in astronomy. What you might not know is that Groundhog Day is really an astronomical holiday.
                         Looks like Phil is being a little argumentative today!

Well, that is my tidbit of trivia for today! I think it is clear that I am not in a very talkative mood today nor have I been for a few days. I don't much care whether it is spring or winter. I just want my body to cooperate and get back to Status Quo (as I knew it) which I can better tolerate.

What a Sad Sack I am today. This too, will pass - It always does. 

Lily is doing Status Quo like I would like to be doing. Actually, she has had three terrific days. When her Dr. Ray called on Monday (as he usually does) he asked if she had any weaknesses in her limbs. My reply was "Not at all, she acts like a puppy". However, today she is having some of the coughing and gagging. But, she sleeps well without breathing interruptions which is good. I have found that if I spend time with her when she is having her difficulty and I gently massage her while quietly comforting her she  responds well. It was quite remarkable to me the first time I observed her response. It was kind of like her breathing/heart rhythm pattern was reset! So, anyway that is my little sweetie pies story today.

I sure hope your week has gone well. Tomorrow is a new day!

Mary 

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Does Your Dog Watch Television

I think this was a few years ago and it looks like a Dog Show in the first photo. I frequently observe Lily watching TV. It's so much fun watching her attention span.
How about a little run in the IDITAROD? Lily thought that would be something fun to do. But, she wasn't sure if she wanted to be that cold for that many days. 
The IDITAROD trail sled dog race is an annual long-distance (over 1150 miles) sled dog race run in early March from Anchorage to Nome, Alaska. Mushers and a team of 16 dogs, of which at least 6 must be on the towline at the finish line. They cover the distance in 9 to 15 days or more.
Joe Redington Sr. (1917-1999) was an American dog musher and kennel owner who is best known as the "Father of the Iditarod Trail Sled Dog Race."

About the time I took these photos, the son of my neighbors had a team of dogs in Montana that ran several years in the Iditarod. They would go on occasion to Montana to take care of the dogs when their son had to be away. According to them, the dogs take a tremendous amount of work, which is not surprising. Additionally, it is a huge monetary investment. I am not sure of his success rate with the racing but I'm quite sure there was some return on his monetary investment. Interesting hobby? I love hearing about other peoples adventurous pursuits. That may be because of my inherent curiosity.
Lily says this is about as cold as she wants to be. "Let those other dogs run the race!" Did you know Lily talks to me???

Lily Medical Update: She is doing about the same. Maybe, a little less coughing. Hooray!

It has been raining all day. I sure hope the folks in the "Burn Area" aren't flooding to severely. Flooding started a couple days ago. And, snow levels are lower but thankfully not near the "Burn Area". Prayers for comfort for them would be nice.

Now, it's time for me to laugh. Do you too have a haunted house?
Mary

Saturday, January 9, 2016

I Did It - But I Should Not Have

Well, let's get this out of way to start with. Digging out the creek caused me to injure my right lumbar back. Yes, I know better but "who you gonna call" as the saying goes. I do not have anyone who can help me pro bono. And, I do not need The County coming to call because of flooding. This seasonal creek in my yard feeds into a much larger creek that goes through town and provides a wonderful park setting with a great creek for the kids to swim in the summer. The Park is supported by the people of the community and has a very impressive repertoire each year of entertainment.

This is a picture of a Little Duck Race which is an annual fund raiser in the park.
This is the creek that comes through my property from the culvert pipe (top of picture) that channels the water under the roadway at the edge of my property.
The water flows well through my neighbors property (below) just on the other side of my wire fence when I have the fence opening cleared out.
My fence between the two properties  backs up with leaves, rocks and dirt/mud when it rains. During the past five years I have not attended to the removal of the debris on an annual basis as I always did in the past. A side note: My time was spent with My Special Man! 











You can see where the backup is all along the wire fence as well as where I have cleaned out the channel where the water flows. I have to keep the wire fence closed when it is not raining because the opening where Lily is standing is a perfect "escape route" for her to "go on a walk about". The fence at the opening is "jury rigged" so that I can lift the lower portion and secure it open, as it is in this next photo. 

I had to dig out about two feet of dirt which was very hard work. My back is still very painful and it has continued to be painful about two weeks since I did the digging. Back pain is not new to me. It is my left side that has been very troublesome since an injury in 1993. A lot of left sided pain since that time.

Mission accomplished!. Lily is so well behaved but she sure would like to do a little exploring!                  
When the fence is open, I have to go out every time Lily needs to go outside or she will go down to the fence opening "in a flash".

I am so happy to have that job finished. Of course I will have to continue to maintain it and keep a close eye on Lily. We are expecting our third El Nino rain storm tonight. As sick as Lily is, it amazes me how well she gets around. Day by day.

Hope you had a good week.

Mary

Thursday, January 7, 2016

It Did Not Disappoint

Look at the beauty of these magnificent amaryllis flowers. And, there is a second blossom to come! So many bloggers have shared their beautiful photos of the special Christmas flowers. I never tire of seeing them. In the past I have received red and white blend amaryllis and hopefully next year a can order a bulb for something just a little different. I haven't seen any in the stores around here. But, whatever color I have I know I will be just as thrilled.
Seasonal Christmas plants/flowers have always been very special to me.

This is a photo of Lily a few years ago during a trip to Yosemite. She always has loved traveling.
Lily UPDATE - She is having a little more difficulty with her symptoms. These episodes come and go. But when they persist more than a day I get very worried. At the moment she is resting/sleeping next to me. She has just come in from running around outside. Her chest is enlarged because of the fluid and her enlarged heart. And her breathing fluctuates from calm slow rhythm to more labored with some coughing/gagging. She has really amazed me with her stamina, loving temperment and tenaciousness to live. I have not seen any distress in her face. She generally seems very happy and she likes all of the attention that I give her - lots of hugs, cuddling and kisses. Believe me, I will not let her suffer.

Pretty fancy car seat. Don't you think? Nothing but the best for my sweetie!

Stay warm.

Mary

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